Will Not Die Soon

Somehow I know I'm not gonna die any soon. Because I haven't lived enough yet. I feel it. Yeah, but I also don't know when will I know if I have lived enough or not. And even if I know that and still get a prompt death, that knowledge is so not worth my senses. So it's good that I don't know and feel this way. 

I caught up to this thought because I was in a really devasting phase, which is not ended yet, and don't know if it will end now. A phase where I stopped believing in KARMA anymore. In that situation, I blamed it like it was the worst ever belief that ever existed in the world. 

This isn't it. I almost extruded faith in God, in my family, and in myself. Any positive conviction obeyed by me and people around me had become an impractical concept to me. It was like whatever comes in between is lost. 

Being in a bad situation, that too this bad, it is been suggested to keep calm and Talk to Yourself. Well, nobody tells how to do so. But that's not the point. I have something else to say about it. Not Talking to Yourself is the best idea and suggestion one can do most in those situations. Because then things will only remain what it actually is. And it doesn't go worst just by thinking and Tallking to Yourself. It will also save other unaffecting attachments from the parallel universe. 

All that could be done is to accept how bad things are, not consoling oneself by talking and saying "All is well". All isn't well. Better to deal with that fact and talk to those who are there to act around and about it. 

It isn't the same but also not normal yet or even in the near future it seems to be. But I learned to accept and survive. So yeah that is, in all, the best thing in this situation.  I will not die any soon as I learned to survive and act. That also led me to believe in many of the lost things again, not all, but I do.