Parallel World
Sometimes I fear a life that I'm living in my head. What if I'm living wrong as I won't have anyone to do it right. It's a parallel world in here that is so different from real world. A real world of which I'm struggling to be the part of. It's so contrary that both these even don't have a common start anywhere. It's seemed to end common though.
Recently, I was asked by a person about my dreams. That time I realized how difficult it is to answer. Because I had to sound realistic and logical, at least something that could be digested by the audience. I shared a dream that I had for my real world, but how can I be sharing to that person dreams of this parallel world in my head, they are so different and unacceptable to ME even in real world. I could not think of anything else. Nothing even to say for sake of saying. Because mostly I live in my head. No time to figure out answer to that question.
I'm the performer and it's only me to judge it in my head.
But when performing in here, in the reality, it is scary, wordless and exhausting. It's like I'm talking to that person or audience already with so much comfort up there. But here it's not happening. Not any closer even. Not even when initiated by them. Why it's too hard to communicate here. Gets me existential crises.
Many of does that, I see it around. Therefore it is definetly not impossible. So the world in my mind I'm livng an entire different life which doesn't seems to be right now. Here RIGHT could relate to realistic, but nothing like I have something else to compare it with.
What if for my entire life I would just live alone there and wrong, more concerning! And people will continue to count me introvert, shy, frightened, etc.
I want to live both worlds though!
Recently, I was asked by a person about my dreams. That time I realized how difficult it is to answer. Because I had to sound realistic and logical, at least something that could be digested by the audience. I shared a dream that I had for my real world, but how can I be sharing to that person dreams of this parallel world in my head, they are so different and unacceptable to ME even in real world. I could not think of anything else. Nothing even to say for sake of saying. Because mostly I live in my head. No time to figure out answer to that question.
I'm the performer and it's only me to judge it in my head.
But when performing in here, in the reality, it is scary, wordless and exhausting. It's like I'm talking to that person or audience already with so much comfort up there. But here it's not happening. Not any closer even. Not even when initiated by them. Why it's too hard to communicate here. Gets me existential crises.
Many of does that, I see it around. Therefore it is definetly not impossible. So the world in my mind I'm livng an entire different life which doesn't seems to be right now. Here RIGHT could relate to realistic, but nothing like I have something else to compare it with.
What if for my entire life I would just live alone there and wrong, more concerning! And people will continue to count me introvert, shy, frightened, etc.
I want to live both worlds though!
Why are you sounding like my thoughts… // literally //
ReplyDeleteThanks for the advice and appreciation. But if you can mention your name...
DeleteSee, that is okay what you are feeling right now. Everytime I read this I feel that, this is just me like same as you, totally in sync with you. And it is good that you have self realisation about this thing. Being a little pragmatic, Only thing I would like to convey is you just take care enough that it doesn't impact your work. Just don't come under wrong influence of anyone and someone taking the advantage of your this thing and misusing against you. Otherwise its totally okay. Take Care :)
ReplyDeleteThanks for mentioning that. But does that message really sound influenced by anyone?
DeleteNo no, don't take it that way! Sorry, if you. Actually I know..you are little sensitive by heart that's why I mentioned it specially, so you just don't get into other troubles.
DeleteI suggest you to share the remidy if you have found any. Up to what I know, there is a cycle of staying in real world and staying in hypothetical world. Everyone goes through this cycle. It's only about the duration of staying in perticular state. So, one needs to develop a method using which he/she can stay longer in world real world.
ReplyDeleteBut it is not as simple as we think. It is natural that one would like to stay in comfort zone. When we compare real world and hypothetical world, hypothetical world wins the race of comfort. Because in imaginary world everything including conversation, action, reaction etc. Are governed by one's mind and will be in one's fever only. And one is the hero in own world. But that is not the case in real world. So, for every one a world inside the head is beautyful which holds attention and makes one prisoner.
There is lot to discuss about awareness and consciousness.
Life does not always engulf your thoughts and your vision. All of us are living in two corresponding worlds. When reality strikes you and bogg you down with much of boresome ramifications make sure you have another world to keep yourself enthralled. The goal is not to get rid of your imaginary tells but to find meaningfulness in harsh reality by adorning yourself with a second world called an imaginary world that exists in your mind only.
ReplyDeleteWorld is nothing without lives
ReplyDeleteEnjoy the peace or joy wherever you get
Happiness is just nearby you find it out and the world is changed and no need of other world